eat me alive, thats whats going throught my head right now. she and that guy are provably made for each other. yeah until now i figure why would i want to love someone who wont do the same you know, yeah im jelous and shit, but what am i at this point in life, a corpse. i still believe strongly on things even though im not that smart, and i still feel the same way about alot of things still. you know what i cant wait till college, i dont care which one as long as it takes me away from that school. i said this out loud, im actually planning on phsaing out highschool from my memory and forget everything i learn and saw there. i dont give a shit about anything there, the only thing i hold there hates me and spites me any chance she takes. its very unfair but is this the type of person i really am, am i just a push over at times too nice kind of guy. sometimes i reflect on the shit thats happen to me and i keep asking myself when is positive karma going to swing my way for a change, in any form would be fine as long as i could feel good like i use to. as for drawings i will indeed scan as many as posible they have been stacking up and i need to post. for those that read im amaze.